I think something is wrong with me.... we've been married for 5 months, we live on an island, we have no steady source of income and..... I want a baby. I know how crazy this sounds but for the last few months, I have had what some might call 'baby fever'. We DEFINITELY cannot have children right now--I want Jason to be around more, we want to be able to provide financially for our family, and we need to be back in the states. I know all the reasons why now is not a good time to start adding to our family, but that just makes the situation worse. I know we are young and we have so much more of our lives ahead of us (God willing) and everything changes when a baby is born (no spur of the moment trips, less sleep, less money, etc) but I still have something inside of me that wants to be a mother. Just because I know now is not the time, doesn't mean that I can just stop wanting to start a family.
We have talked about the 'baby fever' issue many times and we've finally decided that we will start a family at the end of Jason's clinicals--which is about 2 years. We want to raise a child up in a stable home where the baby's needs can be met. I dream of decorating a nursery, picking out an outfit to bring the baby home in, first words, birthday parties, Father's Day/Mother's Day, and all the other things that come with being a parent. Right now, I will just have to keep reminding myself of how much better things will be for the baby and for our family if we are just patient! Look out though in two years--we're going be some AMAZING parents!!